After exam week prior CNY

真的是sibeh 没事做的一段期间， 想找个part time jobs 时间又alang alang 的，想去找Dear 的妈妈在Jementah Dear 又不给。。。 so 我这一段期间就呆在家没事做。。。
没事做就想多多， 和Dear 追究些有的没有的。。。
干嘛到公司没说声，干嘛吃饭= 早餐，午餐or 晚餐没说声， 干嘛到家没说声 and 干嘛在哪里了没说声。。。 干嘛做什么也没说声。。。 我是不是很烦？？ 反正都过了热恋期了，要问就问咯，要答就答咯。。。 追究也是没有用的。。。 对不对。。。 成熟期什么都顺其自然别想多多咯。。。
但有时真的没有办法没事做就是那样子了。。。

本来plan 好了。。 after exam 收拾找house room rental 准备搬东西。。。 14 & 15 去找Dear 帮忙她搬东西。。。 but 16 till 21 叻？ nothing do。。。
嗯。。。 真的是毫无头绪。。。 还好有我一个朋友叫Ah Yiu 彭亨人。。。 jio 我去吃， 去神庙minyak beku， 去看戏。。。 走来走去也是一个烦恼。。。 因为在花钱。。。
我真的真的是要学会计划。。。 but 有时计划赶不上变化。。。 人啊。。。 怎么那么难做人呢？

昨晚看了youtube 的戏，叫做“脱轨”讲说一对很恩爱的恋人相爱很久了想要一个小孩，可是因为丈夫精子无精症所以不能有个小孩，那个妻子知道却没和丈夫商量偷偷的去拿钱来叫侦探寻找一个和她丈夫张得一模一样的男人和他做爱生小孩，谁知道那一个男人也是个精子无精症，那个妻子崩溃了。 在这一个过程当中，丈夫也发现到是他的问题， 于是他不断努力的治疗。。。 他的问题治好了，要去和妻子生孩子。。。 那里知道他们碰巧在妇产科医院碰面，妻子和那个男人，丈夫望着他的妻子。。。 结局真的是。。。 真的是。。。 “脱轨”
我看了这部戏的道德价值观就是“为何两人不好好商量” 别把问题变得更加重的问题。。。 我相信那部戏后来的故事就是两人无法在一起了。。。 一个女人被另外个男人上了后， 100% 的男人们都很介意。。。

这段期间，除了看很无聊的youtube 戏，video， 电影。。。 微电影。。。还有收拾之外，我也去把我的车子小白洗得一干二净， 外面洗和里面vacuum和polish。。。
然后就blogging 咯。。。 看fb滑fb。。。 打飞机。。。 可是不能一直打了。。。 等下真的是无精。。。 哈哈。。。

累，不懂要写什么了。。。 先告个段落，the end ...

My UniLife gonna End soon

如果早点认识她my UniLife I think was very interested. 一转眼间就过了3年半，下个学期就开始去实习了。讲真的我大学里的日子一直以来都是活在自己的世界里，别人懂我很多，我懂别人却很少，因为我不是那种八卦，很吵又好动的家伙。
时间过得真快，同学们都问我和他们相处了怎样?我没什么想法，因为一直以来我都活在自己的世界里面我都不知道要和他们说舍才好，因为确实有种代沟，时代不同的关系吧。讲真的在还没有想要sambung大学 时我朋友曾经说你念出来都几岁了?这是一个问题，我没管我照着去sambung, 于是我hometown 的朋友就渐渐没有什么联络了。上了大学由于年龄分别不同，我变了super lone ranger. 认识的人不多，也不参人，遇到课业的问题自己解决，看书上网找，不然就short cut 的方式去做。我也没什么参lecturer，第一年和第二年真的是sibeh susah, 那些form 6进来的头脑很好什么都 吊!catch up 的像神那样迅速。我看了都无言，就这样第一年CGPA 3.0 罢了，then 第二年慢慢的进步，我猜想是lecturer 看我年纪大所以给可怜分，我的CGPA 都有进步如今CGPA 是 3.46 ，我希望这次的Final 可以up 到3.50 above.
我个人觉得大学是给有心读的人，像我那样就像是一脸被家人要念degree 进来的，所以为了不辜负他们我进有所能的把我大学的课业搞好。我的FYP 讲真的没有什么压力似的，我不懂干嘛其他人，别的faculty 做的那么有压力似的，明知道选那个title 那么辛苦就别去拿咯。我的人很senang的，工作少可以顺利完成那就好了，与其做多多的pattern 浪费时间罢了。这是看什么人保持着什么态度去学习，我知道那些人的头脑好，所以我也没有想要和他们去比较，自己做好本分可以过就好了。
所以能一个人就一个人，免得起冲突， grouping task 就不能了还好我可以和有一群人他们jio 我参进来的，每次都会和他们那组，那组的pattern 和我很像，我没怎么追求完美只要工作可以做完就好，就这样一路来跟到毕业。在大学里我人际关系从100跌到75，一我不喜欢参那些厉害塞厉害吹的人，我觉得他们很幼稚，二我只想好好的把我的大学过完。大学的人际一定要搞好，可是我却不理，我觉得我自己过得好就可以了，虽然心里面超不爽那些厉害过我的人，那么吊!那么神!那么sohai !可是能怎么样呢?他们有他们的patterns 就是那么简单的道理。
大学里的日子，我的blogger 不断的陪我一起度过，有时心情不爽，写出来后就雨过天晴了。未来的日子我也会不断的写，因为这是我人生的记事本尤其是不爽的心情，愉快的心情，觉得有kick 就写。在我人生里头我曾经有个知己可是现在不是了，她现在是我人生最重要的人。要写我与她相遇的故事真的是很长，我只能说大学的我是不怎么的，但我很幸运的认识到了自己的未来。总结就是我们都有不一样的经历不一样的看法，有些事情觉得后悔但也未必真的后悔。大学即将毕业的我已经铺好人生下半段的发展，my Unilife gonna end soon. ..加油!加油!

好坏都写, 我的救命文章， 我是真心的爱你！无关过去！

这一个blog的坏处就是会看到我以前的坏事， 无论好事坏事我都毫不犹豫的写在这一个blog里面， 我也不知道几时开始写， 写了过后很少回头看，这一个blog很少人会comments 很少人会看， 我唯一的观众就是现在我这一个女朋友， 以前的她是我的知己后来慢慢变成了男女朋友，我也是为了她写了blog，不停的写，也是好坏都写。
我觉得啊，这是我人生的记事本， 最近她给我看我以前曾经写过的东西，让她很不爽， 我也是很惊讶，无端端她跑去看我以前的东西，我没什么生气，就觉得没有必要去懂更多。就因为这样她追问了很多， 也开始怀疑我会不会像以前那样， 可是前提是我当时是一个单身汉，我一直不断的和她解释她开始要和我闹分手了，我就很和平的语气对她说，你再说一篇？ 然后就把事情带过没去提了。
她和我提起这件事情，我当时也赶快的把那些过去的不好看的文章删除了。我觉得没有这一个必要去留念， 我真的是交了女朋友之后没去看过去的我写了什么东西， 可是问题是她以前就是我的观众了， 我做么要把我的记事本删呢？ 我不知道要怎么说。。。 我一直觉得愧疚，就每次和她说我不是那样的人，我和你都是男女朋友了已经交往了， 干嘛要在乎我过去的事情尤其是还没和你交往当时的我呢？
其实这一个问题还很okay 那个“那个”问题就很严重一点。 你是否为了和我“那个”你才爱我的？ 我觉得啊。。。 人与人之间充满的执著和问题， 我只能说那个是很自然的事情发生， 没有谁对谁错， 人类是平等的，责怪只会让这一段感情增加负担。
我选择了她就是我一辈子的事情，也会去一辈子为了她写下我们的点点滴滴。。。
不只是在这一个blog还有属于我和她的blog， 我付出了那么多，我不希望那一片真心是多么的敷衍我， 我的人就是这样子了，以前活在自己的世界里， 不管什么事情，喜事，埋怨的事，心情不好的事都会不停的写blog，自己写自己爽， 直到遇到了她。。。
没有错就是你了，王乙晴。。。 你把我内心的世界带到现实的世界， 让我不断的跟随你，保护你，爱护你，什么都听你的， 因为我的人很单纯， 只要可以为了自己喜欢自己爱的人付出我觉得我的生活就有了人生目标。。。
我希望你是真的可以感应到我是真心的爱你。。。
The End 。。。

接下来的日子一定要顺顺利利度过。。。

Time was running so fast, the same quote like previously I mentioned before...
大学的3年半日子也即将告别了。。。
人人在大学里过的日子很精彩。。。 我却觉得在考验着我的人生。。。
一直以来我都觉得大学的日子不适合我。。。 毕竟我是在23岁时进入。。。
多数的人20岁或19 岁就进入了。。。 没想到我可以耐到现在。。。
next semester is going to internship already ... seriously... my Uni life...
1st year, 2nd year very struggling, after that 3rd yr until now 4th yr first semester there is no more the word struggling anymore... because I just seeking for pass... "cukup makan only"
I not seeking for perfection ... 4 flat , 3.5 pointer above....
因为我知道我的standard 到多少。。。 只要可以过就好。。。
老了。。。 显了。。。 读那么多书也只是为了一个文凭。。。
因为我不是一个读书的料。。。 小学中学的我成绩不是很好。。。 UPSR 没有A。。。 PMR 好像也没有A。。 SPM 才一个A罢了。。。
7 岁至12 岁小学。。。 13岁至18岁 plus 1 年过度班。。。 19岁至22岁（中间有半年是工作）。。。 23 岁上大学。。。 如今26岁了。。。 还有多一个实习那一个学期就毕业了。。。 共花了接近20 年都在读书。。。 可是我的头脑没有一般的厉害。。 。 成绩也没有那么好。。。 已经看破了。。。 不用再compare那些比我快比我会的人。。。
羡慕，妒忌。。。 想骂粗话。。。 不爽已经是种麻醉药了。。。
成年已经是不用说太多话也会理解。。。 that called mature.... already mature ... dont blame so much towards your life journey.. 自己懂自己的standard 就够了。。。 尽力过就好了。。。
但有时懒惰就什么都gg 了。。。
我只请求接下来的日子可以过得顺顺利利。。。 since FYP already done.. next challenges are the examination ... 4 subjects go go go...

seriously this morning my presentation on my FYP was very rushing... I was explaining in super brokening English... I got realised that panels were blur blur dont know what I going to describe about... 我相信他们也知道我的standard 就没有够够力的shot 我。。。 我觉得有点幸运。。 好safe的感觉。。 but the result I dunno what will get... I expecting my FYP will get a B lor... 不可能A 啦。。 我不是很神。。compare with other.. 那些神人假假扮到自己很不会。。。 last last also got A... bo bian... they standard is learn nothing also got a A... 我看破了。。。 还是顾好自己就steady le...
dunno wana say what already...
jia you for my life.. Samuel SIM^^

Appreciation Letter to my Family Members.

Dear Mum, Dad, Sister and Brother

First and foremost thanks for the financial support for me to further my studies in UTHM, Johor. My Uni life is around a corner, I would going to graduate soon on next year October 2017 after my internship at my 4th year last semester. This semester is my 4th year first semsester which is my last semester study in UTHM, since next semester I will having my 6 months internship, placement of my internship I already got which is at "Bond M&E Group" Johor Bahru. And I will start my internship on 6 of February 2017.
In my Uni life I going to tell some truth regarding my financial expenses, infact I got an education loan from PTPTN, an amount of RM24,500.00. I just said I only got the loan amount RM7,000.00 due to my own reason which is I need family members to support and give me living expenses during my Uni life. That why I am not dare to mention the loan I got was RM24,500.00, this amount of money is divided 7 times credit to my acc every semester RM3400 per sem. Hence, every semester I got the extra money to spense.
Entire in my degree life the financial support by my family members monthly was given me RM800, other expenses is for my insurance RM250 and phone bill est. around RM50. Thus total is around RM1100. This amount is for my expenses per month in my Uni life which have to pay for my accomodation room rent, food, stationnary n books, entertaintment and school fee. Infact this amount some time is not enough. Roughly in estimate expenses spent in food for 3 meals a day, 1 meals cost RM5.00  3 meals cost RM15.00 included drink we count as RM20.00, times 30 days a month total is RM600.00. And my accomodation average is RM200 per months. therefore RM800.00 just enough to cover my those expenses.
My school fee, printing assignment, stationary and books, and the transportation fee I need to pay by myself. I had ever estimate my financial flows since I got PTPTN loan, RM3400 per sem, monthly is around RM560.00 as my extra money to spend in my Uni life.
My school fee and the transportation fee actualy were combined as a UTHM student you need to pay those fee, which cost you aroud at RM880 like tat in current situation per semester
 use campus bus sometime it is very diffucult to wait the bus, you might spend extra money to use  public transport or you going to buy a transport like me.
During my 2nd year first semester I have bought motorcycle RM2500, included accersories and road tax cost me RM3400.00 that time I got ask Brother and Sister to sponser me RM1000 so I only used my own money RM2400
After I got motorcycle I was seldom use campus bus, so the time I started got motorcycle my  expenses was increase abit maintenance plus petrol everymonth estimate must put RM50 on side.
During my 1st year 2nd year until 3rd year first semester consectutively Mum and Dad  everymonth gave me RM600 for living spenses, started on my 3rd year second semster Mum and Dad  gave me RM800 since I rent outside house not live in residential collage anymore because that time was difficult to get it.
Actually I not sure the exact amount on how much already my expenses from Dad and Mum gave me, I just know my PTPTN money not dare to let Mum and Dad know, still remember every semster start schooling Dad and Mum will  gave me RM2000 to pay everthing fee on starting new semester fee, actually the fee is not cost so many, just RM880 per semester if got the residential college the amout is nearly RM1300 like that. But not every semester Dad and Mum gave me RM2000, I think just 4 times only until my 2nd year 2nd semester. The rest since I got told Dad and Mum  I got the loan from PTPTN then Dad and Mum  ask me to use that money to pay the school fee.
The loan of my PTPTN is started on my 1st year 2nd semester credited to my bank account. every semester RM3400.00, start from there I got do saving on those money, every semester I was place my extra money which loaned from PTPTN to fixed deposit account. I just place some amount only not the total amount since I also need to buy something that I liked like change a new phone, tablet and others which are by using my "owned" money (that get from PTPTN)
During semester break I also got save some money from my part time job, so include there I not sure how much my money saving into my FD account. Start my first day I got the PTPTN loan I directly save into the FD account and every semester I topup the amount that I wanted to put in my FD account until my 3rd year last semester the amount got nearly RM12,000.00. if I didnt buy the things that I liked such as phone RM2100 and etc. and the transportation motorcycle RM2400, the saving of my PTPTN will have RM17,000.00
After I got a girl friend in my 3rd year 1st semester, I was thinking I should have a car so that easy to bring her go somewhere, on that time I was thinking I wana buy a car, a second hand car. I was felt regret why that time not going to buy a second hand car instead of motorcycle, because it was worth just spend around RM2k plus the motorcycle cost you can owned the 2nd hand car. The second hand car like kancil the cost were rougly RM4000 to RM7000 above. on that time infact I can buy a second hand car but I still thinking.
Until now I was decided to buy a second hand car which is kancil. The car already bought last 3 months ago when started my 4 year first semester. After my PTPTN credit to my acc my saving become RM15,400. I draw out entire money and left RM5000 still put inside the FD account the other RM10400 is for my current living spenses and to buy a car money. The car cost RM6000 and I was put RM3000 as maintenance fee. And the left money as living expenses.
After I bough a second hand car I really need to plan my financial flow, my living cost was depend my family members support actually RM800 per month is not enough after  I got a car have to add another RM200 and more for the petrol and maintenance cost. I was just enough to survive since I still got PTPTN as my financial support.
As summary, I just want to thanks my family members for financial support and I was felt very sorry for not telling the truth on I got the PTPTN loan the actual amount. And got another 2 things to hide the first thing is buy motorcycle only sister and brother know then lastly Mum and Dad also know already. The second things is buy a second hand car cost RM6000, Mum, Dad, Sister and Brother dont know.
Dad and Mum dont worry about me, PTPTN just the eduacational loan not the big sharp loan, I going to graduate soon. after graduate I got a job those loan may settle by monthly, it was a small matter and I was already adult please dont blame me on  why dont use money wisely, infact I thinking that nothing wrong to buy a car, since I got think twice before make this decision I really need a car as the transportation easy for me to meet my girl friend and seeking for a job.
I planned to live in Johor, Johor might be my second home. I was seriously in love with my girl friends Yi Qing, I already planned and decided to marry with her in my aged my 29 years old. After I graduate I will seeking for a job in Singapore, in that moment I going to work hard to earn money and buy a house, marry and build my own family.
Mum and Dad thanks for dedicated me until right now a 26 years old young man.
This letter just wanna tell the truth on how I mange my financial flow and explain on how the expenses I spent.

Regards,
Ah Haw...

好久没有写英文了，我的broken english的英文。。。

Hi, my name is Sim Chin Haw, called Sim easily to remember.

I am going to write a report or essay regarding to the trip as following.

first, I am sorry to say I had long time didn’t write in English... if you guys got saw this in-formal article please let me know which sentences of my English got mistake... haha...

Jamboree Report

18 Nov to 20 Nov

3 days 2 night camp. at Uitm Shah Alam

It is a wonderfull camp. that I seldom participated before, it is also awesome able to meet different university students which they are from Universiti Malaya, Uitm Shah Alam, Uitm Perak, Univesiti Sains Malaysia and our Uni UTHM. This camp. is about Building Surveying, this program is under Faculty of Architectural, Planning and Survey. Actual my program BNB Building Services was not 100% related to this program or course, this course they got their own profession, let talk about future career what you learn in school or uni is what job you will be doing for. Do you agree with me? Nevertheless, people will say in fact not all the things that you had learnt or studied before your future career is exactly do on what you learn. I won’t said that that is wrong, but let see student from civil engineering, they future will be civil engineer that is a fact what you learn is what you going to apply right? haha.. since like out of topic... let’s talk about Building Surveying, what I gained from this camp is the course is to looking for, evaluate for, seek for, assess for, bla bla bla... something which is concern on the defects on building.... and the remedial work... how to rectify this problem or overcome with what the greener or sustainable solution to cure the defects...

The more impressive things happened is on the second day, we were going to the Taman Botani Negara Shah Alam, the activities we had over there is the explore race. Explore race like the plat station, go station by station. Total station got 5, we known as checkpoint, it was the different games different team sorted in the game schedule, for example team A, B, and C will have the different game like 1 until 6 games to play, see which team get the game as stated. This activity was spent for whole day, during the explore race we got chance to ride the bicycle, it was great! I have been long time didn’t ride a bicycle. Besides explore race, we got given a task to do which is pathology on building defects, in simple way to say is to inspect the building that have been ordered. There got 5 houses for us to inspect the building defects, besides we are going to know the type of defects at the same time we also have to know how to rectify this problem by remedial works.

this task really hardness, we spent until 2am something finished really freaking tired and exhausted....

so I think that all what I going to share about the Jamboree camp.

I am very tired already cannot write too many, I still got another homework to do....

Cheer... good nitz..

活在自己一个人世界里

我每次告诉自己安慰自己好才我认识到一个女朋友拥有了稳固的爱情。。。 这一种概念在我心里已经是认为说爱情比友情来的重要。。。
我每次告诉自己学无止境，活到老学到老，这种能耐我受得起，但身边的朋友人际关系让我受不起，也许我太在乎年龄的差距，表现，成绩，我似乎都样样受不起。。。 就会给自己两个字，示弱。。。 negative thinking... then 给自己理由的话，如果没有上大学我就不是那样子了。。。 但如果没有上大学我就不会认识到女朋友了。。。 有弊也有获。。。
自己身边的同年龄朋友几百年都没有联络了。。。 他们人生道路和我差很远。。。。很多事情我已经看得开了。。。 在大学里同班同学们都觉得说我都是活在自己一个人的世界里 so what??? 我不喜欢热闹朋友多自然而然就会有是非了。。。
我班上的同学就是那样子了。。。 讲话心口直又有带有刺。。。 与其笨笨的参他们不如走开更好。。。。
大学最后个学期的我在想啊。。。转眼间时间过得非常快。。。 我开始懒懒散散了。。。不是追求4flat的我就是这样子了只要可以过得安稳，成绩可以过，事事顺利就得了。。。
大学的回忆里就美好的就是认识到女朋友，虽然不是同batch 但我是很认真去爱。。。 与其参那些朋友。。 我不是很喜欢。。。 说到朋友。。。 我几乎没有个好朋友。。。。 我觉得大学认识的朋友真的非常幼稚。。。 没有办法。。。 书还是要念，饭还是要天天吃。。。 老了。。。 讲多也是没有用。。。
不知道要写什么了。。 有时候要让女朋友知道我的心情怕她ignore 我所以就写在这里好。。。
祝我天天过得愉快。。。

你把我讲得什么都不是了

每次都有吵架的时候…
这一次就不理人。。。最后complaint 一大堆。。。
把我讲成什么都不是… 最hurt 到我的是我买给她的东西还跟我嫌。。。送给她的时候她没有讲什么，最后在我背后插一刀…
在她还没有插我一刀前就跟我追究钱的问题…好像我没有花到半分钱在我们感情的路上… 就哪里埋怨的说一般的情侣出门逛街吃东西都是男生付所有的费用为什么我们要一人一半？
在问白痴的问题吗？我们一开始交往时就是这种system 了而且当时我追你的时候都是我在付出… 之后我们约会你说我们还在读书所以一人一半付…过后你工作了我还在读书约会时有时你硬硬塞钱给我的…你都会帮我多付了一点… 我无言～
你昨晚还和我追究我生日礼物和蛋糕的事情…就把我的生日和你的生日相比…你觉得你出的比较多…so what?? 讲到我很赚到是的～我无言…
过后和我说以后买结婚戒指的时候怕我会买Cheap 的戒指应酬你…我无言了！
接下来认定我以后或者是现在都不会付我们约会吃东西和买东西的费用…一直觉得说我在用你的钱！妈的～我开始不爽了！
最后批评我去中国和家人玩买的东西不是你喜欢的而且都是便宜货～不像别人买Pandora 的包包送给女朋友～walao! 我真的是很想潘她了！
那么爱计较钱的问题还有Expect 我不懂怎么做男朋友…就觉得说我没有一次是对她好！没有一次是用我自己的钱买东西给她…没有一次请过她吃东西等等。。。明知道一开始我的standard 就是那样了… 你以为我不要快快读完赚钱吗？你以为我不想买好的吃好的给你吗？…你就只懂跟人家相比！…
如果我连一餐饭钱都不能请你吃我就不配当你的男朋友了！我真的很无奈女人的天真！幼稚！和什么都不懂～
算了吧…讲多多也没有用！我还是保持沉默… 也没什么话要说了！