V Moody v moody

V moody and Very moody de 心情来了。。。生活是这种态度。。。

我无法让我的态度亮给人家看。。。因为心里一直隐藏一种不能突出自己的模样。。。

我还是会觉得我很自卑。。。不但年纪大过别人还什么都不会。。。然后我就会一直埋怨如果我不拿degree现在的生活也许会过得更好。。。因为我本来就不是读书的料。。。

看看我的缺点：。。。 MUET Band 1… 英文烂！。。。 马来语okay okay。。。 华语一流（其实也不是啦，碰到那些整天用那种文言文讲话的人就想打他们了）。。。语言啊~。。。 我就是马马虎虎咯~。。。。人际。。。我没什么要去参他们。。。I am always a lone ranger since I entered University…. 虽然华人朋友多。。。but 我不会要去参。。。因为他们有时讲说sibeh让你不爽！就是他会酸你酸到够够！我他妈的我已经忍无可忍了！！ 他们就是那么的神不但成绩赢人说话厉害。。。but差过人家就是人品。。。 我这一生中绝对不会交酱的朋友！。。。 其实人际啊！是要handle好来的。。。 我就差了这一点。。。就和别人平衡不到。。。

接下来的人是成绩。。。 我已经非常看破了。。。 我还有1年就完了。。。我不讲毕业。。。因为我已经毕业很久了。。。只是再去念罢了。。。

当什么都做不到时。。。我就是sibeh的很让自己negative 去了。。。。

还好最近交了女朋友。。。 平时心情不好时压力大时都会和她说。。。我觉得她是我最好的听众了。。。不说了。。。blogging 就到个段落。。。 the end¬  

MY MUET IS OVER

Sesi November 2015 I got my 3 papers of my MUET which are the first paper is Reading, follow by Writing then the last paper is Listening.... It was started at 8am until 1pm at DSI Uthm... Reading spent 1.5 hours... Writing spent 1.5 hours too and the Listening only 30 mins.
From here I wont like to express myself... actually I am not fully confident with my muet just now... so here is the rating on the determination difficultIES scale based on my standard:::
REading : 4/10, Writing : 4/10, Listening: 3/10.... and the last time Speaking test my ranking is: 6/10... I got little bit confidence with my speaking... see how?? did I ranking myself was definitely poor right? I was very poor in English dont u see that? less confident then look down myself...
So what? bad English I also can speak, write, listen and read mah?? just our standard is not same...
I try to be your standard but so far I am try best to be your standard... hopefully one day I will stand on beside you!.... I know I was older than you... aged NOT that meant everything... aged is one of a thing based on how old u learn and how old u gained from your life experiences.... dont be proud of yourself and criticise others ppl I will point u "V" or oOo.... KanG! ... your are perfect so what?? need to show off yourself meh? I know I like to compare each other u got seeing right I am blaming ppl that was greater success than me.... My pattern is like this... recently I was nothing to complaint so much... because I am already take it as usual... there is no harm to me anymore... kick your ass off on my head! stop argue with me right now!... I am just doing myself... and confident to my soul...

Last but not least.... My Muet is over... I got a hope to say that wishing my MUET passed.... which is as a requirement to graduate from University... haiyah cukup makan sudah... dont force yourself hardly... life is short... be happy and calm down to prolong your life... I am freaking damn ass hole... just ignore my lousy stupid English... asalkan PAssed Passed! did your hear it!!! haha... no pass then try the second chance lor... 

THE END! 

Time Slow Down 孤单不再是一种滋味

Time Slow Down, and my mood become slower...
孤单不再是一种滋味，而是成为了我一种生活习惯。。。
Loneliness not longer as relish, but its already be part of my life.
最近我好像失恋了。。。
我的日子好无奈。。。没有一场恋爱就算了。。。连一场友谊都没有。。。
25 岁的我。。。 过得好像很狼狈。。。 一直反复着当初的话题。。。
23 岁进了大学会不会后悔？。。。 这只是个人的目标与追求。。。
我会进大学是因为家人的关系。。。我的人很简单。。。没有主张。。。
虽然很努力。。。但是EQ没有人家高。。。 我就是天生的笨！
为什么别人那么聪明。。。一下就明白了。。。我还要想很久？
23 岁进了大学后不但要面对多种的压力也觉得自己很失败。。。
因为自己年龄大的关系却没有领导能力而且成绩没有别人好。。。
除此之外，人际方面也变差了。。。
怕面对。。退缩。。。放弃。。。不想要。。。
就是因为怕被讲。。。羞辱。。。破坏。。。等等。。。
于是我选择了简简单单过日子。。。 虽然朋友不多。。。
没有知己也不用紧。。。但至少有家人的支持。。。
大学的我就是酱的pattern了。。。
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Unexpected Plan jio watch movie or sing K

Recently 不懂什么风把我吹到从宅男变去半个宅男。。。 haha... tat is know to jio girls outing...
事情的来源是从我 housemate 开始。。。 他爽爽jio 要不要找那天的女生们去sing k？
haha... got point liao... so just based on what his said lor....
本来说去唱k 或去看戏罢了。。。 who knows both we achieved ... haha...

 this photo was taken in K box room...
想和她们拍照but malu... so selfie lor...
We sang at "Voice" Parit Raja.....
4 persons.... each RM10 for 2 hours...
since not enough for us sing then
we were extending for another 1 hour
so total plus tax everything is RM17.00
quite fun I had been long time no sing K
already.... I think got 1.5 years no k-ing songs
... haha..... felt of amused face as you can see...

Movie time....
sudden plan when me n housemate
said just go n watch movie or sing k
both chose one.. but....
as you can see... haha...

通常outing hor 我们无法想象到。。
just folo the situation on that moment...
haha.. my housemate was confusing
since like he dont wan to go far away frm
Parit Raja... who know drive along the way
when deciding where to eat then the car was
driven to Batupahat..


What I am going to talk about is.... outing with friend was so so owesome...
even though I was a 宅男not much talk with girls but when gathering 2gether the feel like different...
# fb 认识的friend
# 一个和我同state的朋友
# 爽爽就say on 的朋友。。。。
# nthg to say liao...

三角恋情

我不知道可不可以那么形容。。。就是因为这一个不可告人的秘密。。。
我被陷入blacklisted liao... involved in three persons, 2 girls 1 guy... things happen like this...
previously I had write about it... the Paktor feel... 我发现到我好像care这两个女生。。。
but 想追的是另外一个。。。这好像对她不公平。。。 the sibeh serious de things is
both of them already got bf.... I still go and tackle them... 2 girls 1 guy I think like a 三角恋lor
since we havent start paktor yet.... but I really got that feel lor...
昨晚I really hard to handle this situation... 我突然跑去骂她说做么和她说我的秘密。。。
because of this I non-stopped to explain as she told me why dont believe me?? then she was quit the group... 这让我想起一件事情。。 why I created this paktor group? what is the purpose?
when I was explaining to her I got mentioned 我不再去追她了。。。其实Ｉgot feel that she was
regret introduce her for me n she got mentioned abt this.... by feeling I know she liked me...
but I didnt take it serious...Recently the girl I like right now, I really dont have idea.... bcoz last nitz talk about her bf... She said why you still tackle me since you know I already have bf... my freaking kidding answer was because you are havent get marry... I was very funny at that moment... 我想ｐａｋｔｏｒ想疯了。。。　anyway actually my blogger 根本就不是什么秘密。。。　ｊｕｓｔdont want let certain people see bcoz of care my impression... by the way I not much care lor... this blogger is ｍｙ人生的笔记本嘛。。。　无所谓啦。。。　我想paktor group 就到此为止料～。。。

HEY

HEY GIRLS....

今天的主题为 HEY。。。
不知道什么动力让我又开始写起一个blog了。。。
HEY 有点粗有点霸道。。。 but already is the common socialized language dy...
今天要讲的大纲就是。。。继续paktor的感觉。。。
就是我before that写的post。。。这一回是第二版。。。
我已经4年没有谈恋爱了。。。不！正确来说是 1275 days / 365 = 3.5 年。。。
这一次是我由我进大学以来可以约到两个女生出来单独聊天。。。
我真的是没想到也。。。 事情的开始是很简单的。。。
就是因为Wednesday just take for granted watching cheap movie cheap but not
since is public holidays... 和一个女生在这之前已经聊到很够力了。。。
我们自从在信息聊天后就开始想要见面了。。。加买这一次我们已经
见了4次了。。。 第一次是在cc她无缘无故的约我出来为了给我东西。。。
第二次是jio她jogging at stadium。。。第三次我随便的jio她出来要看戏。。。
她就很on了。。。but she bring her friend Wendy.... 因为下雨我就提到说去租车吧。。。
then 我觉得我开始疯狂了。。。所谓的疯狂我不懂怎么形容我自己。。。
她已经有男朋友了。。。其实我没缠她。。。我只是爽爽的邀约。。。
谁知道她接受了我的邀约。。。我很清楚我们的关系。。。
所以我不介意她带朋友去。。。其实她的朋友Wendy我也认识的。。。
know at FACEBOOK 咯。。。 可惜也是有男朋友了。。。。
then 我就做了一个group named PAKTOR GROUP ease for us to discuss plan for
watching movie... 就因为这样我感到有paktor的感觉咯。。。
所以第三次的见面有两个人。。。 she and Wendy....
我既然泡两个女生叻。。。很有暗爽的感觉。。。
过后我们又再见面了。。。 is Wendy jio de... meet at Mc Donald...
我们三个就聊些有的没有的。。。 都是关系到男女朋友的事情。。。
我觉得我是最有经验的那位。。。哈哈哈。。。虽然给的意见有点怪怪but
大家都会体会到我的感觉。。。Wendy和她。。Wendy没有什么讲。。。
她就讲了很多。。。Wendy感觉上只是陪她来罢了。。。从9pm聊到1.30am
我觉得我们三个人的关系又更进一步了。。。
其实我的point很简单。。。我有和她们说帮我找个女朋友。。。。
but seem like 她们好像喜欢我酱。。。不知道是不是自己长得帅还是有muscle。。。
anyway....如果是就好了。。。如果是的话。。。我想我会选择Wendy咯。。
she hometown same with me mah。。。 but我们的星座不ngam。。。
是差一点点就ngam了。。。其实我跟另外一个也是不ngam。。。
我们3个人就这样子聊有的没有的东西。。。希望自己开心没烦恼罢了。。。
seek for girl friend... I think I should do more research.... 说真的我好像对Wendy
感兴趣了。。。
走一步看一步吧~沈君豪！THE END~

Got Paktor de Feel

Sorry for the Bad English =-=
Dont know why today will go date a girl that in my fb chatting box... simply say that is my truly fb friend... Thinking today is Wednesday is a movie day mah.... so I have a excited mode going to enjoy watching movie... firstly I date housemate they all busying with their own stuff...n I has been denied... after that I was simply typed a msg to my fb frenz my truly fb frenz jio her go for movie....... the moment things happen.... haha...
Normally guys ask girl outing sure got purpose one.... but me.... dunno how to describe this feel....
after chit chat.... the deal was succeeded.... but with a term and condition she got bring the other friend so total got 3 persons included me....

here is ours.... left one is me, middle is Yi Qing and her another side is Wendy....
How long I knew them... I knew Yi Qing I think already got a year plus.... didnt count for it... Wendy ah ... not so long lor... even though she was same state with me in Sarawak.... our relationship just a normal friend.... but when Yi Qing different a bit... more close but more far... closed meant I and she got topic to chat... we both were chatting leg, but only in certain time lah... more far meant she is from Johor n I am Sarawak...
Today really sohai loh.... without planning outing trip just because today is Wednesday but didnt think that was a public holidays Happy Wednesday forfeited no discount no student price.... omg... originate RM9.00 per movie... then now is RM14.00+ ... if plus pop corn RM23.00+ ....
But is okay lah once a blue moon.... and also got chance wefie with them pretty girls by my samsung galaxy S6 (haha... showoff xia)....
This un planned outing worth also... I has been learn how to tackle a girl.... find topic chatting... seem I was an introverted person so I have to train myself to be more social with them... talking skill... smile... happy... feel.... lol.... its all about how do you handle a situation when u met a girl... but 1 vs 2 leh... at least got another one... if 1 vs 1.... sure the situation was cold...
I has been 3-4 yrs didnt paktor already.... after this outing... I felt like got parktor de taste lor....
already 25 liao leh.... sometime I was anxiety xia...when I got a gf wor....
but many choice lah... 2 of them which one u like.... =-= this is the big big question marks....
now i dont care how old are you... they both born in 1992 leh... small me 2 yrs old... last sem liao... next sem bye bye already... I am the nearly extinct student with the aged of 25 still got 1 year and the another half (practical) in UTHM ....
Seek for a GF ah... I am really dont hv idea lor... I am not pro in tackle girl.... although I had ever in love with someone... but those already past story... the point is right now... I gotta have a gf... how? when? what type of girl u like?.... many problems leh....
I wish I still have this type of Paktor Feel with those pretty girl....
THE END OF MY WRITING... =)

25 coming soon...

不久的我，过了几天的我。。。即将是25岁的年轻人了。。。
我给我自己买了两份的礼物。。。samsung tab s2 & samsung s6
这两个devices本钱很厚。。。我已经计划很久才买的。。。预算5k
But tab s2 oni 2275, and s6 oni 2100 total is rm4375 still got 625
这两个宝贝算是我的生日礼物咯。。。我特别选了9月1和10月1买。。。
9月1是 tab s2 and 10月1是 s6.... 这两个devices是今年最新款的tablet n smart phone
对我而言要买就要买最好最棒的东西。。。而且是有备而来。。。
那么酱子做东西才比较稳重。。。25岁了耶。。。不大也不小了。。。
所以说。。。in this coming 25 yrs old i gona buy a something special for me....
Tab s2 and s6.... my favourite stuff....